I learned today that my mother really does hate me. She's told many people I'm too stupid to drive, too dumb to have a bank account, to rent, to live. She looked at me and told me she could have had an abortion. I told her we both would have been better off. I was raised in squalor. SQUALOR. She was a hoarder and we rarely had running water. She got a gym membership so she could shower on the regular and I had to ask to go with her. I've pulled living roaches out of my ears when I was in HIGH SCHOOL. I had LICE in MIDDLE SCHOOL. I ATE FOOD OUT OF The GARBAGE at public parks so I could sleep some nights. She spent so much time at the library but never picked up a parenting book never helped herself to help me. She would shut herself up in her room, send me off to do whatever. She was more upset at my not sympathizing with her NEAR molestation event than my telling her I had been sold by my god damn long term babysitter