im so scared that my partner doesn’t love me even though i know he does. like any time they’ll be away or not texting me, there’s always this nagging voice in my mind thinking “they’re deliberately annoying you. they hate you, they’re just too nice to break up with you.” and sometimes i can’t help myself from venting to him and my other friends or just texting him a lot if he’s not answering, and then i eventually apologize for spamming them. then i think that im being even more annoying by apologizing because a past partner of mine would get really pissed at me for apologizing when i “did nothing.” i think im too codependent on my current partner, but i love them and can’t be bothered to help myself recover. i feel like recovering comes with breaking up or losing our close bond, which i definitely do not want. i don’t think he does either. i hope.