I grow up in average family. But middle school wrecked me up in every way possible. I have niche interest at the time and it was considered boyish, it was Ultraman. I liked it due to its plot and the message it delivered: "be kind to each other" and showing the good side of humanity. But I was hated for it and was bullied because of it. They shared rumours that I was unstable and a poser just because I like things that considered boyish. The entire school bullied me so bad they wrecked me up to the point I just wanted to kill everyone using cyanide. I never do it since I didn't get the poison. I never get to see any therapist since mental health was seen as taboo or something in my country. I never get the chance to be diagnosed or see what's wrong with me. I try to continue to live, but the impact was still there. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me and I'm tired. I felt empty, I want to die. Everyone just invalidated me tbh