im so scared for my mom she's so down and depressed and i still have 2 younger siblings and im too selfish to let her get down this much i just want her to be better for them because i dont see myself having the strength to help my little siblings its so fucking selfish but my mom is so depressed over what grandma says and we cant even fucking leave because my grandma doesnt have anyone else but us and i want my mom to be selfish for once and pick us over her mom but thats still her mom so really im so fucking awful