i'm starting to think that i have some sort of mental disorder or just major abandonment issues- bc my whole day and mood revolves around my boyfriend and how he treats me or if we even talk that day. he likes being by himself and it drives me crazy sometimes lol. i wanna be around him all the time and in my head it feels like i have two versions of myself arguing about whether or not i should be upset about that. one side of me is selfish and wants him to only be around me and with me, and the other side is trying so hard to understand and feels bad for the way i treat him. he tells me that he feels like he has no time to do anything but hang out with me and that he doesn't want to hang out everyday but like that's all i've ever wanted, i want to see him everyday and i always make up little excuses and reasons to come and see him, even if it's for a second. i want to start therapy and figure out what's wrong but therapy feels so awkward and uncomfortable.