I feel bad 90% of the day. I'm depressed, anxious or sick. I think it's because I've finally realised that I actually don't belong anywhere. I'm an outsider to my family and friends, just a simple background character. I'm the overbearing, woke, talkative, happy one who always has something to say and will talk to anyone who I pass. My mum thinks I'm a fantastic extrovert and that I spend all my time in my room because I'm lazy. But that's not really true. It's like my brain turns on a switch, happy and chatty with others but inside I hate myself. Everyday I find myself thinking, nobody's listening to me. I can distract myself with doom scrolling but that only lasts a little while before I remember how alone I am. I talk to myself more than any one else. Theres always someone more important than me. I keep waiting for something to happen or something to finally fix itself but I'm not sure this feeling will ever end. But thanks to the one person who comments on my posts a lot