I don't think I have a future. I'm not physically ill enough to get accommodations but i'm too physically ill to do much. Just a few hours at the mall is enough to wipe me out for days. I'm mentally ill but not mentally ill enough for... I don't even know. I don't know what I want. To be mentally ill enough that they put me in a hospital and help me? To be mentally ill enough I'm willing to take my entire pill bottle? I don't really know. I've failed the past 2 years of HS and have only continued progressing for god-knows-what-reason. I'm not well enough to go to college. i have no motivation to even try for a job. the only way ill ever be able to leave my parents house is if i have someone my age or older who im close to who can support me financially and take care of me, but i dont have anyone. i may as well just die. theres no point in trying. but im scared of how bad itll hurt. im really scared.