I feel like im in a cycle almost every day. I wake up at 4am against my will and listen to music while waiting for the sun to rise. I lay in bed until 7am and then I get up and have a caffeinated drink. Then I go downstairs and I eat a yogurt and go back up to my room. Then I watch/listen to a podcast while crafting/drawing. Then I play an instrument. Then I eat lunch. Then I craft/draw, watch/listen to a podcast, and play my instruments again until the sun sets. Then I eat dinner and go back to my room and take a shower. On special days I dye my hair or I turn the dim led lights in my room on and cut myself while listening to music. Then I lay in bed and read/watch a show on my phone until I realize that it’s 12am and I should probably sleep. It’s the same fucking thing over and over and over again and I sometimes feel like im not even fucking real.