I wanna be just loved. Wanna be someone's.. beloved.. needed. I never judged peoples by anything. I always wanted be warm and just feeling one soul.. Had partner, had. 11 months, even not to 1 year - He left me.. and fault was mine. I never will forgive myself for this mistake. I can't normally forget him. I can't normally react at his username. I blocked him and similar (because he did it too), but I'm still in grief. Person, who meant to me everything just is gone. I can't. I wish he was still with me, it was my dream. I wish he gave me the chance - I was ready to change, fix mistakes, ready just for everything and I mean it.. but reality decided broke me fully. I wanna overdose yet again, I'm tired, I never will find anyone. And this traumatic moment will lead me to death. Never I was needed or lucky, was only alive tragedy. I wish I never was alive, and never would be known. I hate myself. I hate my fate. I wish everything was just okay.