I like my long distence bsf alot like in a romantic way,and were both girls so im very confused if i like girl or not bc ik i liek guys too.shes my only friends for like the past 5 years and i got scared bc of my feelings and i havent talked to her in 6 months its just not that but i cant talk to her bc my parents dont liek it when i talk to her and moniter everything i do on my devices so i cant even call her.i dont know what to do if i tell her feel liek ill lose the only friend i have,and she still texts but i cant talk to her and im so frustrated but idk why im also disgusted by my emmotions im not homophobic so idk why i feel this way.i can finnally call her and tell her how i feel but im so scared and ive been a terrible friend.