I have such a hard time connecting with people, I grow so attached to others but after a while it seems like I get bored of people. I feel as if I need other people to validate me to make me feel real and present, I guess? It’s like I’m living my life on autopilot and I’m an adult next year. Sometimes I hurt people on purpose, sometimes it’s an accident. I know reactive abuse isn’t okay, but I quite literally don’t know how to function because I was never taught what was right and wrong, in a way. I know what’s right and wrong sometimes but I can’t follow through with it. I’m aware I’m a really bad person, and I’ve been struggling forever. I just don’t have any motivation or drive to want to get better.
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