the one and only person i trust enough that i would spill my guts to them is currently suffering through everything I am and more. i don't have people to turn to. i had therapy today and didn't use my time well at all, and i don't have another appt for a week. how the fuck do i survive holding this fucking pain in my gut. its turned into physical pain lately. my allostatic load is crushing me in a slow death by poisoning my body and mind. i am scared i am scared i am scared. i'm so useless, so fucking pathetically useless. i hate everything including- no, especially myself. might follow up later when its easier to write, so I'll sign this with a pseudonym. -Mormegil
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