Do i really have to lie to make my way in life? i just ranted but it doesnt do anything. My mother hates me, i have proof. She just keeps siding with my big sis who tried to STRANGLE me, and even played with my throat. She even told me if i told my parents she would do something to me. im scared. i told them today, but my mother sided with her. What if she kills me? im just 12 and shes 16, im scared, she could kill me any second now because my parents went jogging and its just me my sis and my grandma at the house right now. At this point i just dont care anymore. My life is suffering, but i dont want to die. Im currently crying as i write this, knowing no one would care. You cant even do anything. I tried to kill myself but i cant bring myself to do it. i make my friends happy in school because if they are happy, im happy. But i still feel something in me that's telling me im going to die. I just know everyone hates me, and you probably think im just doing this for attention. please..