It honestly feels like im not even okay anymore. i smile alot at school, soemtimes not even at all, but it feels like im being ignored and dimsmissed. its hard and scary for me to tell someone how i feel, being afraid they'll judge me for whats going on with me. like im going mental. i had friends who would tell everyone abt my health and it was torture. my parents would come home from work earlier every day, they would get emails, they'd ban me or keep me in my room for ages. thats why i stopped telling others abt whats happening to me. its genuinely hurts me when ppl tell others abt whats happening, even when i tell them not to tell anyone else. ik they're worried abt me, but what i want is js for them to know abt whats happening to me bc they're who i think understand most abt me.