I can't take it anymore, why does suddenly My Best friend have a "leash" that i can't Even be told about that restrains them from talking to me of spending time with me but they keep telling me over and over about how much they miss me and want me to be around, i just want some clarity, there is so much stuff in My life going on and i just want to at least get My Best friend back, i already Lost them once and havent Even gotten them back no matter how much i try, i feel so desperate it's been so many months and i keep trying but they are also going thorugh a Lot and i try to be understanding but why can't i Even try to help?why am i now some sort of forbidden thing they need to ask permition to who knows who to Even speak to me, i miss You so much, but every time i give more and more effort and you ignore it,i feel Even more worthless as a person, am i really not worth the effort of trying?then why do You keep me around?if You really wanna get me back at least try spending time with me