idk if I can live longer, some part of me wants to live and try harder but the other part of me is full of doubt and sorrow. I'm a gay teen going to be a senior soon next month, I been having lots of crushes for so long since 8th grade and they all end up the same, some being harsh while others are a simply rejection... I have a new crush I met in summer school, it's Aug 3th as I'm writing this. His name is yensys and he's so cute and a little chubby but I don't care about that, we only talked one time and I felt so happy that day I even tried to talk to him but I never got the courage to, worse of all summer school is about to end in like a week, I really want to make my move quick... but somethings pulling me back... my fear and overthinking really gets to me I wish I could find the person one, I doubt yensys is gay but just a straight guy like everyone else... it's hurts to hold these feelings and I hope to find someone for me someday...