I was always told about sex. Even that multiple beings wanted to have sex with me! But I never had sex with someone. Ever. And that makes me both vulnerable to predators and also hypersexual. So much of my life is surrounded by sex, AND IVE NEVER HAD IT?? It makes me so desperate and I hate it. I don't feel like myself and it hurts. And I keep wishing and wishing not for sex, but for rape. Because now thinking about it, my life wasn't mostly surrounded by sex, it was by rape culture and sexual assault! I just feel so so so disgusted! Its sex this, sex that, CAN WE TALK ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE THAN SEX! I love talking about sex, I want to know more! But I can't handle talking about it forever! I'm not an object I have feelings! Correcting, I don't want rape, but I have intrusive thoughts about it. Rape is horrible disgusting and bigoted.