... idk what's wrong with me. today I was in the bathroom and I was just sitting there and idk why but I touched myself. just like how my uncle did before all the court things. I wanted to stop. I really did. idk what's wrong with me. I keep crying to myself because I say I hate nsfw but I still find myself wanting to see more of it. I hate myself. not only that I always try to keep things clean and do things the right way to the point I forget to care for myself. I cant tell anyone about it because I feel like i'll be judge. not only that i'm a female who is 12 meaning its prolly just gonna be brushed off or I'm gonna be told its dumb. plus im scared if I say it to anyone older than me they might do the same thing my uncle thing. I'm scared. I don't wanna live like this. I've been getting good at drawing but sometimes I have to stop myself from drawing nsfw. its gotten to the point I barely draw. I keep pretending that i'm fine but i'm not. I'm sorry. this is dumb