I'm mentally insane, i did this to myself. I would suffocate myself, but I never got the courage to die. Now, I don't know who I am, I'm going crazy, my bain is filled with oxygen which causes like brain damage. Why can't I just die?. I don't have a real father, he's just there, he cheats, gambles all our money away, and hurts my mother. I don't have a full time mother, my mom keeps being kind, even what shes going through, she's the one doing everything in our buisness, even if its my father's job. my mother works from 5am to 1am everyday, and my father makes her lessen her pay so he can gamble it all away. i have no siblings, i have no friends. i'm a damned freak, no one ever cares for me. i try, every day to text my 'friends' how they're doing, but all I get is to be left on read. I'm done, no one cares, or ever will. This is the end of me. I hope someone reads my goodbye letters, I hope someone sees my scars. May I die with everyone's pain, since I was the one who created it.