I think I have an ED but I’ve never been diagnosed (even through foster care) I only eat like 1 meal max a day, if I get to that, and afterwards I feel so gross, full, and fat. My stomach also gets so bloated when I eat, and genuinely I like the feeling of a empty stomach, it’s kinda comforting to me, and also I’ve been criticized on my weight my whole life, I’ve been told I’m too big or so skinny on the same day, and honestly even in the mirror, it feels and looks like I’m a different person everyday. I’ve talked to my friends about this type of stuff and no one else relates at all to my feelings, it genuinely makes me feel so alone and like a monster, I’m also a guy so when I tell people, they’re always very shocked, which is also upsetting, like yes I have feelings and yes I do stuff to myself I know isn’t healthy but genuinely it’s been apart of my life since 13 and it’s just normal now for me, I just feel so alone in this.