i’m actually do fucking done with life. i’m exhausted, tired, and feel sick. i S/H but it doesn’t do anything, it just makes me feel a tiny bit satisfied. i always stay in my room since summer, and i just scrolled, did some writing, drawing, and didn’t finish the summer goals i have planned because i feel totally unmotivated and lost. its kind of hard to breathe, and i hate that. i want to die, but i want to satisfy all my peers, family, friends, my pet, anyone, first. i already have the fcking rope, goodness sake. i wish i can die, if i every had the courage to. i feel like crying everynow and then for no reason. i’m bi, and my online friend for like two years stopped being friends with me when i told her, because of religion purposes. last year, i lost my online best friend of three-four years and i still don’t know why. i kind of hate even trying to make online or real friends anymore. i just feel plain and boring. i wish i could die, maybe a car accident or something like that.