Got out of just over a year and a half long relationship, we moved in together after 6 months. We lived together for a year. I had to move out. Our roomate was my best friend, I lost her in the breakup. And as awful as my ex could be, she was someone I could so comfortably be myself around without thinking about it. It's been 2 months, the hurt still comes and goes and I just feel so alone. I don't know my new roomates well. Socializing has been agony, I have no energy. I lost all of my close friends because they became my exes friends and she would tell very one sided stories to them and has made me out to be this pathetic crazy ex. I have good things going and I try to appreciate and remember them as best I can but when the lows are low it's hard. I don't have anyone I can talk to about how I feel without being mortified of my own existence. Even typing this out feels stupid. Journaling isn't helping as much as I need it to. I need to feel like I am heard, but I don't know to.