im so fucked up. i cant meet with my fave person and it also pisses me tfo beacuse she was the only thing that i love but i cant even vent to her in person. i fucking love that im alone and my life is an endless cycle of sleep, wake up, doomscroll all day, go to sleep at 3+. i just dont wanna do anything anymore and i feel like im nothing. i dont have friends and im a loser also i cant buy anything with my money beacuse i dont want anything. im giving away all of my stuff to my friends and i feel like im empty and nothing can change neither help me. i dont tell anybody my problems and people dont even know whats the truth behing everything. i sometimes jsut wanna dose off, and black out so the pain is gone for a little time. i dont love anybody, im starting to hate my friends and fly away and away from everybody. i cant do anything just only doomscrool, i dont have any hobbies, i dont sport, and i most likely just wanna go to a deep forest, listen to music, and shut up for a long time.