I'm unhappy. All the time. I could be doing something that makes people in general really happy and still feel unhappy. It's not something new. When I think about it, I've been unhappy all my life. I never felt grateful for being alive, I don't know how people do! These days I find myself wondering how normal people feel in their everyday life, I don't know how I'm supposed to feel. I don't know what's missing, what should I be doing to feel something else? I don't know what's the problem. I keep thinking, if I do that thing or achieve that milestone maybe then I'll be happy, then I get there and I'm still unhappy, nothing changes. I don't know what to do. I just want to be normal.