I only love when im shown love. I feel so ashamed of this trait. I feel like my feelings are never real. I feel like im selfish because I just want love. I have severe rejection sensitivity and trauma. I can never even tell when I actually have feelings for someone or if my brain just wants to be loved. My ex misses me a lot. I miss her too, but at the same time I more so miss the version of her in my head. We've been talking online for a few days and I haven't seen her in person so it's hard to say. It sucks that I feel like I cant trust my own feelings.
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