No one talks abt wanting to commit suicide for a selfish reason, for example, one of the reasons why I really want to commit is so I can traumatize someone. If that's what it takes for me to not be forgotten, then ill do it. yet at the same time, I want to be forgotten. As if I was never there in the first place. I just want my death to actually make an affect on someone. I want it to make an impact. Yet I just wish everyone would forget once im gone. Another thing is that I feel so useless. I feel like I only burden people no matter what I do. Im just a nobody that everyone finds annoying. Everyone could do without me. And even once im dead, ill still be a burden because ill traumatize someone. Yet that's what I want. What wrong with me?
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