I'm so tired. My mh is all over the place right now, but I feel like I'm invalid because nothing that bad has happened to me. It's just normal teen life things, plus obviously having to deal with how bad the government and the laws are where I live. I'm trans, but where I live I have no access to any forms at all of gender affirming care under age 21. Not even puberty blockers. And I wanted to vent about this on The Trevor Project, but the second I saw everyone else's forums, I felt 100 times less valid than I had already felt. There's people dealing with abuse, assault, suicidal thoughts. I'm just a boy pouting compared to them. My worst thoughts lately have just been deleting all my socials to see if my friends even care, and digging my nails in my skin till I bleed. But I couldn't do that. I'm too scared to hurt myself and I get anxious if I don't talk to a friend for too long, so limiting socials would just make me worse. Though lately I've been feeling ignored by my friends.