I was top of my class and was hyperfocused on school _ work (I had to pay for my own tuition + help my family w the business). snr year college I decided to try dating. There was a guy my friend recommended, but my other friend liked him, so we both reached out to him. He liked me more, but it all felt messy so I dated someone else. We fell in love and moved back to my hometown together. It was a messy relationship; we were both young and our first loves and a lot of trauma and I didn't get into med school. I doubted myself and my career and decided to retake the exam (I was severely depressed bc I was healing from the abusive relationship). somehow reunited with the first guy and we dating. We supported each other (I decided to switch to pharm/ will be attending school in a few weeks). He dumped me bc he felt super insecure, was having anxiety attacks, and his family has been falling apart. I told him that since we started dating, he's been in/out. I feel so confused.