My high school colorguard instructor makes me want to kill myself. Genuinely I wish I’d get some kind of season ending injury or just die so that I’d have a reason for me to quit I’m so sick of it all. I feel dread just thinking about it. I’m a junior so I feel like I have to stick with it especially because our captain who’s a senior has done so much for us over the past three years dealing with two other shitty instructors and a band director leaving but I’m exhausted by it all. Our instructor has taken the fun out of guard for me the other two instructors didn’t even do that because at least when we were working I would be getting a break from being criticized but at this point I feel dread when I know the routine is almost done because I know I’m about to be berated and called lazy and told that I’m just not working hard enough I can’t do this anymore. The underclassmen also come to me about it but I don’t know what to do when I’m just as miserable as them.