I feel like harming myself in some way. I feel like I’m not liked, I’m big, slow, make mistakes, stupid, etc. I feel like I’m being dramatic because there are so many other people who have more severe cases and I’m just here having suicidal thoughts over small but impactful things. I feel like I’m always last place, last picked, and just a dumb bitch. I wish I was pretty. I wish I was thin and beautiful. I feel so large and heavy for my age. Social media is intoxicating and rotting my brain but it’s just so addictive. I’m also too addicted to comparing myself to every single person around me. I will compare specific body parts or personality or people they attract and always find more flaws in myself. I just hate everything about me. I wish I were invisible sometimes.