My mom just asked me if I put on deodorant (I didn't) and so for reason she kept going on about how I'm "that age" now and I was already hating myself for it and for some reason I started crying, yes mom; i know you're disappointed because I couldn't do something everyone does, I can barely get out, let alone take care of myself when I do, I know it's silly and that I should be able to take care of myself just, l just don't know anymore, i want to I just can't, I'm so fucking tired