i’m official 2 years on antidepressants and that have helped me so much..but recently it feels like they haven’t been helping me. I’m Starting in school in 5 days so i don’t have time for a doctors appointment and i’m terrified I’ll end up decaying in my bed without a purpose. I wanna be great but i can barely do anything for a day without needing to rest for days which i haven’t done in a while..haven’t done that since before i started being on antidepressants. I so deeply wanna succeed and i don’t find comfort in my own sadness but i cannot get out of it. I don’t have control over my life because of my own mind and body and the only way i feel i’m in control is when i eat…i’ve picked up on some old habits from when i had an eating disorder, I know it making me worse but i have no other way to deal with my lack of control. i’m unsure of what to do and how to change my life for the better so for now ill just wait till my medication hopefully starts working again or i try something new