I keep failing my family especially my mother. I’m considered the worst child she’s ever given birth to because of my lack of controlling my emotions. I get angry over the smallest things and it then creates chaos. I keep fucking everything over and over. Can’t stop crying, can’t stop flinching, I can’t stop being triggered over the same god damn words she keeps telling me. Like I know I’m a fucked up adult who relies on her parents for shelter. I know I’m a fucking failure in their eyes for not being who they wanted me to be. I can never be mad at them because they’re not the problem.
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