I just hate everything. I do everything wrong. My body, I hate it. somedays i feel too big and some too small. My relationships, i'm so lonley and I wonder all the time if it is my fault. This was the worst academic school year for me ever. I feel like I do everything wrong and I feel so alone. I want to end it but I'm scared and know I have so much life left to live. ED, sometimes I eat so much and sometimes nothing at all. I want to live just not this way. anyone reading this just know you are loved. you are special. you deserve to live. we will get through these hard times together.