I don't even know where to start. Life just feels like it is imploding on me and I can't do anything to stop it. I am so busy but not busy enough because there are ALWAYS people doing more than I am and EVERYONE who goes to my school is telling me I don't need to worry but I go to a special education school so it feels like that doesn't mean anything because most of the people there aren't getting anywhere in life regardless. I am taking a summer course at an IVY university in the molecular bio field and it is SO stressful because all the people around me are actually worrying and are really perfectionists in the same way I was raised pushing and pushing to get ahead. I feel like I am a complete slacker and I am never going to get into college and I am going to fail life because I am such an idiot. It feels like I really don't belong with people who are actually intellectuals. I am on the verge of tears all the time and haven't even started junior year of highschool.