I got a text a few weeks ago that won't leave my mind from my abusive ex. He was so disgusting to me it makes me start shaking and break into a cold sweat whenever I even think of him. Nobody believes me when I tell them about what he did to me so I'll share it on here. Hopefully at least some strangers on the internet will believe me about this. He got me drunk for the first time in my life. He fucked me until I was going to throw up and then took a photo of him putting me into a chokehold while my head was over the toilet and I was sobbing because I felt so sick. I told him I didn't wanna fuck every time before we hung out and he still ended up doing it to me. I always told him before and after that I didn't want to but he didn't care. I just froze up and let him do it when it happened, hoping it would end soon. I guess it's on me for not telling him to stop when he was doing it, which is why nobody believes me when I say he raped me. There's more stuff but i dont have space :(