sometimes I see other people with scars and i feel so invalid. I never wanna get better. I wanna keep getting worse and worse until I destroy myself from the inside out. And I feel so bad for that because wdym I have my own stuff and two parents who love me, yet I still wanna die? What kind of ungrateful brat am I? Why do I always wanna get worse? I've been like this since I was 9. I've tried EVERYTHING to make it stop. To get better. But I can't. So I'm embracing it. I wanna be so covered in scars that you can't even tell where skin ends and scars begin. I want people to see me on the streets and have to force themselves to look away. I will never be valid until this happens.
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