I loved my wife with all my heart I was a little boy internally when we first got together. I never really understood true love. She comforted me in a way that was unusual at the time. As time past an we got married an had our son I wasn’t the best husband but I was just learning what it meant to be a real man to have real struggles real problems. By the time I got my self together to devote my heart to her it was too late she had already left me internally. I was too blind to her potentially coming back to me with her heart that I forced both myself and her to stay together. We’ve been separated for almost two months after she (what I consider) cheated on me twice texting another guy for a prolonged time I as I sat there in front of her begging her for months at a time for love an attention. Since the separation I’ve had multiple ups and downs of being sad but part of me tells my self why be sad over a person who knew the outcome of there actions a still choose to hurt you. still idk