just feeling sad but I don't doubt that it's because my period is coming up. Currently 1 am and I'm listening to music from 2016 because that was the year I was the happiest apparently. thought it'd be better to write this instead of crying with music blasting. just feeing under appreciated which isn't rare, feels like my friends are closer with each other than with me and I'm just an after thought. They hang out together all the time and I'm only added at the last minute. They called me yesterday when they were hanging out and asked if I was working (because they were at the Walmart I work at) but didn't think to ask before they even headed out. They have to pass my house to even get there. I don't know if that made sense but idk. I have to reach out first just to keep in contact, decided to test that and not message them all day and neither messaged me first. Idk this is really just how all of my friendships seem to end. Ima die alone as a single loner but ig I just gotta deal 👎