there is $10 in my checking account because im between jobs. this morning I woke up at 6 am to actual rainwater coming through the bedroom ceiling into my bed in the apartment I moved into last month. i feel lonely and isolated in the town I live in. it was the only place I could find a job after getting my bachelors but the social and dating scenes are horrid all around. it makes it even worse that im a gay guy and this is rural appalachia. I was wanting to go to bed early because sometimes if I get a lot of sleep I wake up feeling better when I feel down but im sinking into the mattress (which is on the floor in a different room now to avoid a leaky ceiling) and realizing that the fitted sheet is not cool and refreshing, but instead the mattress is still moist. and I have work tomorrow.