I feel helpless, useless, and unfixable. My partner broke up with me a few weeks ago but we're trying to be friends. We were best friends, we know so much about eachother and one of the worst feelings when they broke up with me was about losing that best friend, so we're trying. But I just hurt them. I'm mean, I keep saying I'll change but I never do apparently even after all the work I put in. I argue, my brother loves me but even he has to deal with my arguments, my anger, whatever else it is. I don't have the money to afford much and I feel like I can't handle this stuff anymore. What's the point? What is the point of me trying if I never get better? Every conversation is stilted while I watch my partner have friendships that are flourishing, while I'm drowning ours. Am I unfixable? How can I even work on this? I don't know anymore man. I'm just really tired these days. I'm afraid of what I'll do sometimes if I don't fix myself. I'll keep trying, but I'm just so tired.