my life feels horrible rn, my mom is sober and has been treating me like shit bc of it, our finances are shit and its probably because im going to college, my mom seems to hate the idea of me being hapoy about college yet treats me like im a complete burden, no matter how hard i try i cant find a second job because no ones hiring someone going to college in a month, but my job is in our slow season so i barely get shifts, i dont have the motivation to do anything, my friends seem better of without me and theyre all planning on being together while im the odd one out and all i seem to provide them is a ride bc im the onlg one woth a license amd they dont even pay for gas which pisses my mom off and makes her want to keep me in the house. all i do at home is rot in bed or clean and do chores for my mother and i cant find joy in basically anything and even when i do feel joy its destroyed by either my mom yelling at me or just a cripping sense of despair and sadness and the thought that e