I've been begging my mom to move out of this state for the past 3 months because I've had to live here for all my life and all I've faced was abuse. Whenever I bring it up, she gets pissed at me and yells at me about it despite KNOWING I have no friends because they all treated me like absolute shit and completely ruined my mental health when I was friends with them. I'm not asking her to drop everything right this fucking minute and leave like she always screams at me about. I've opened up to her about almost everything that happened to me here besides the rape and sa because how am I supposed to feel safe telling an abuser that that happened to me yk? Everything else I have. I told her about how her own mother abused me physically (she already knew anyways) and she fucking blamed that shit on me and said I was 'poking a bear'. I'm so fucking sick of living in this family and I feel disgusting knowing I'm another link in the world's worst chain. Just kill me dawg I'm so tired