I don't know how to explain what I'm feeling exactly but it feels awful. many people say I'm too young to know what love is and maybe they're right but deep down I know that's all I ever wanted. not only romantically but also platonically. I feel like I don't belong anywhere. my friend group goes out without me, not telling me anything about it, my parents are emotionally distant etc. also there's this girl I really love and she says she loves me back but I don't feel like she does. I think she's using me just to feel like she's loved. I've asked her to be my girlfriend but she didn't want to which is completely fine, that wasn't really what bothered me. she just acts like we're a couple but she doesn't want to be in a relationship. enough about her though. I'm scared of being a disappointment to my parents. I'm a bisexual girl and I don't feel comfortable coming out to my parents. I spent years trying to be "normal". I hated myself for who I was. I have somany more things I wanna say.