i hate how i keep thinking of my ex-friend, even though we're no longer in each other's lives. it sucks to constantly be reminded of her whenever i see something that i know she'd like, like music, videos, movies, art, you name it. i sometimes wonder if she thinks about me too. does she even bother, after becoming so selfish so suddenly? she always brought up how her newer friends, who she met after me, gave her stuff. it felt like receiving gifts was now her number 1 love language, especially with her new boyfriend, who gave her actual expensive shit, like in the $1000s+ range. this all honestly made me feel inferior, because the most i could afford to give her, in terms of physical gifts, was the occasional art sketch. she showed genuine appreciation for them, and had drawn many art pieces for me as well, but i still have to wonder: if i had given her something she deemed valuable, or something of high monetary value, would she have reconsidered dropping me?