everyone important leaves me and now its a possibility that my bsf might leave too.. I hate myself and i honestly wanna kms. nothing i do is ever good enough. it doesnt seem to be enough to keep him happy, keep my bsf in my life, and actually earn respect from my family. I try so hard. I push myself to my limits everyday. However, the second i stop because of how draining it is everyone starts bombarding you with shit. ive been having a horrible night all night. ive been tryna talk but its just like he ignored the messages where im genuinly asking for help but just now we were on call for 2 minutes then he hung upwith no explanation. ONLY when i asked if everything is alright he just said "I need to deal with it on my own" like no hard feelings but all night when im BEGGING for help, im just ignored and other's matter more. im not tryna sound stuck up, ive just never felt like i mattered. At least until him... now he is making me feel like an obstacle he can just walk around. i dont m