This guy i skated with few years ago sent me a snap not so long ago. I think we were good friends back then but im not really sure, never felt inside the circle, more or less just touching the outline. Rarely i felt like i was in friendships, well i was, just never inside i was always the last call when nobody else answered. he calls me out of nowhere for drinks i assume on a friday and i couldnt answer, and becuase i dont go out i get called boring (tråkmåns), is he really a friend if its so wrong that i turn down a night? I always felt left out back then and now i cant even think if i really wanna hang out with this guy, what if its the same thing all over again. He looks good, sexy, funny, athletic, unique, and just better than me in all kinds of ways. Back then i compared and never won, after we lost contact for a year or so i felt like something lifted off my shoulder. I didnt have to compete in this race that i made up in my mind and i think i wont fire that start gun again