I think I'm in love with my girl bestie. (Part of a story I'm trying to develop) Context I am 23 female and been with my bf for almost a year. But I feel conflicted because ever since I started being friends with my girl bestie. Everything feels warmer and fuzzier whenever I'm around her and don't feel that way towards my partner. I am pansexual I love both men and women, but I think I am more into women. The thing is though I'm not a cheater and I would never cheat on my him and my bestie is straight. I don't think she would ever see me that way. But I just want to spoil her rotten. Buy her flowers every week, take her to nice meals, be there for her always, Hold her close to my chest. I hate polyamory and only will date someone if they are monogamous to me. But I know she wants bio children, a husband who can dance, and frankly I can't grow a penis. I feel heartbroken even though I shouldn't be. I don't want to hurt anyone. I only wish to love her and for her to love me as well.