im madly in love with a guy like I cant stop thinking of him and I've had feelings for 8+ months but he doesn't know he said "I love you" but he ment it like a friend and I'm losing it my heart aches when I think about my future and I remember I cant have him in it like he makes my heart feel so full but it hurts not having him and I'm also so scare of being in love with someone as last time i got litterly abused so I'm scared it'll happen again he's so perfect,sweet,kind,selfless.honest,gentle,friendly,emotional,warm,heart-stopping,perfect,genuine,soft,he is perfect and I feel like every moment I spend its thinking of him and he isn't ready for a relationship he recently got out of one and in a gc expressed that so idk if I should confess ever or just hold this love in forever and never but I'm scared so much I almost relapsed because the stress of not knowing what to do about it and I cant talk to anyone about it at all what am I ment to do