Friends... Friend? Is this a me problem or is it both? I seem to have lost all my friends. Sometimes it feels like I never also were an friend. Well a few times it has felt real but I have also lost them. Some friends i had never felt like they truly wanted to be my friend and that kinda hurts? It felt like I was the last person they called. Most times or certain friendgroups I didnt feel welcome; ignored, laughed at, or just forgot that i existed meanwhile i was there. atp i dont wan't to have friends, the only friends i have right now is people i work with. Also they all are atleast 15+ older that me (I'm 20). Theyre actually pretty cool, but never hung out after work.... once. Sometimes I think that death might be the solution, not just for friends.....in life Hmmmmm